Last night, my bbf Jen and I drove to a concert venue nearby. We've never been there but we're going to see TAI there in the fall and we had nothing to do so we went to check it out. There was something going on (of course, it was Saturday night baby!) but we didn't go in, just sat in the parking lot and listened to the kids standing outside. The place is
tiny - and located in a strip mall type building between a CHURCH and a DOLLAR STORE. Why anyone would want to play there is beyond me, but I couldn't be more excited. We listened to
Almost Here on the way back and it was...just...just so great. One of the best nights I've had all summer. Music is life, man. Music is life.
On a similar note, I just bought a book a few days ago called "Nothing Feels Good: Punk Rock, Teenagers and Emo" by Andy Greenwald. I got it because 1) I love music and 2) I'm starting to feel like I might want to write for a music magazine when I get out of school. This internship at Shoutmouth has gotten me thinking...just because I'm not in a band doesn't me I can't spend my life with music.
But that's enough self-reflexive bullshit about the future. We get enough of that at school, don't we? So look, if anyone has any interest in how emo came to be, on how it's related to punk music or just how it feels to be a teenager, this book has got it all. I've been skipping around in it and I just finished the section on Dashboard Confessional. Greenwald went on tour with Chris Carrabba in 2002 and what he came out with is the pure, beautiful, beautiful gold that's an artist paring himself down into what all artists really are underneath - real people.
Now I have never listened to Dashboard Confessional. I looked through my iTunes and I have
one song under that artist (it's "She Said" if you're interested) - burned onto a mixed CD given to me by an ex-best friend. So this is where I'm going to say, hey does anyone have a couple of good Dashboard songs they can send me? Usually I wouldn't do this - I think you should pay for your music, bitches - but I'm gonna be a hypocrite here for a minute (read: poor poor unemployed college student) and just throw this request out there. I'll trade you, seriously, whatever you want. If you have "Bitter Pill" which I have read so much about but never heard, I will give you an entire CD - burn it and then draw little hearts on it before I mail it to your house. ;)
As you can tell, the book had a big impact on me. Just hearing Carrabba talk about his music and his fans and how much he gives to them every night and how much it changes their lives. It was amazing. I was a little sad about it only becaus the atmosphere at the shows that was described is not an atmosphere I've ever really felt at the shows I went to. This was all positive and bonding - and at least at the shows I've been to, I've been faced with some real negativity by the other people I've met. So that made me sad. Salty, man. Salty.
But it's good to know that not everyone is like that, not all fans are like that. Maybe it's just in recent years that it's gotten bad.
On a happy note - speaking as a fan who has personally been changed by a band, by a lyricist, by songs and music and standing in a dark crowded room singing along, I loved hearing the perspective from the stage. Imagine if you were the one who
wrote your favorite song, or a song that got you through a rough time in your life...and then people came up to you and told you
it changed them. As a (wanna-be) writer, I can't even imagine what that must feel like. To have it happen every night, to have thousands of kids look at you like you're a God, is not a feeling I can begin to comprehend. I'm just one of the kids. And I spend all my time trying to say "thank you" for that song. Hearing Carrabba say that that's what he wants, what he needs to hear from us kids, was reassuring.
if you have a song that's changed your life, that means the world to you, go write a love letter. Do it. Write a letter to the person who wrote that for you and send it this time. Because I think, I'm almost sure of it now, that they'll appreciate it as much as you appreciate them. It's the least you can do. (Unless you downloaded their music...and then GO BUY THEIR CD TOO JEEZ WHAT ARE YOU SOME POOR COLLEGE STUDENT?!)
That is my rant for the day. Now I'm off to write a love letter.
PS - I had
no clue that CIWWAF are from upstate NY?? Is this true?????!!!?!